dreamweaver says.

Monday, January 02, 2006 ; 10:50 PM

School's starting tomorrow and I've come across lots of people saying that they aren't looking forward to it at all or they don't want school to start. But the truth is, they don't know how lucky they are to be able to go to school. I very much want the chance to attend school tomorrow just like most people are. But I couldn't. It would be a lie to say that I'm totally happy that I don't have to start school yet. Sure, there won't be schoolwork and I can continue enjoying myself. But the thought of missing (schoolwork aside) all the fun and orientations and meeting new friends for the first time just like everybody else makes me feel really left out and perhaps, underprivileged. This feeling sucks. And I must be out of my mind to want to go to school so badly because at least a year ago, this mindset would have been the exact opposite. Perhaps to be put in a helpless and defeated situation will really give you a different perspective.

Dear God, please help me be assured once and for all that SERVE is what I should go for. And while You're at that, please cast away all the anxieties and fears and worries that I have. Thank you.